And Off He Goes To Save The World!

Deployments are many things.  They are scary because you worry about your loved ones safety.  They are sad because you miss that person while they are gone and you think about them every day.  They are stressful because there is so much left to chance.  You go about your life as best you can even though you are missing such a big part of it.  You do your best to focus on positive emotions and thoughts.  Even though I'm sad and I miss my sweet husband, I am so proud.  I am so proud that my husband is part of the three percent of Americans that serve in our military! 

I do pretty well going on with our day to day routine.  Believe it or not, the hardest days are when I do get to talk to him, or if I miss a chance to talk to him in the middle of the night and then I can't go back to sleep.  Any unexpected knock at the door makes me stop whatever I'm doing to take a deep breath and brace myself.  The last thing I want to see when I open my door are two uniformed officers standing there.  I can't even think about that.  Every news story coming out of Afghanistan is hard to read becuase you know that some where there is a family mourning the loss of a loved one.  I get angry at our governments indecision about THIS war when I'm pretty sure if a close loved one of theirs was deployed they would be more willing to reach an agreement on what direction to take.  Collin is missing his daddy.  Right around the time that John would normally get home Collin starts crying and is inconsolable.  Defenitally behavior that I am not used to.  Today when he started getting upset I let him watch one of the videos John recorded for him, and that seemed to help...until it was over.  It will take some time to adjust to, and I'm sure by the time we get adjusted it will almost be time for John to come home.  But that's ok with me.  We will be ready with our arms open wide. 

I have no idea what things my husband will see and experience, but I know I will be here to support him no matter what because he is my one true love.  He just has to get home, and we can handle the rest.  We have such big plans and so much to look forward to and I'm excited for him to come home so we can get started! 

John is my best friend, my sweetheart, my husband, my hero.  There is no possible replacement for him in our lives.  We will see him very soon, but for now we live the day to day!